The Silver Civic
It has been some months since I’ve written a blog, but recently I had an "aha" moment. It took nearly 42 months, before the Most High saw fit to bring this to my attention.
In a prior blog, I’ve written about the torture my wife and I have had to deal with every time we get on the road., More than once, we see “that car” our daughter was driving, that fateful day; usually multiple vehicles—same make, color, model and year. (There are many in the locale we live in.) This was torturous the first year, even into the second year. Now three and half years later, it is still hard to look at that vehicle. Most people don’t have a clue at the struggles parents go through who’ve lost a child, especially an only child.
But the breakthrough came recently when the Lord revealed to me one day after we saw another ‘silver Civic’ on the road, “You need to look at the upside, the positive side of the picture” the thought came to me. “When you see one of these vehicles it is to remind you of Brianna, that she is safe in My keeping [this is not to imply she is in the presence of God, but in 'safe keeping' resting in the grave]. She is secure and soon you will see her again. Further, I’m bringing a greater blessing to your life in your loss.”
It apparently took 42 months before the Lord saw fit to inform me about this “positive way of thinking.” The passage in 1 Thess. 5:18, “in everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus our Lord” comes to mind.
This truth goes for all of us, but for me especially in this situation I must apply it. Being a teacher of the Word, it behooves me to permit Holy Spirit to bring me also into harmony with these priniciples “in all things,” that I may be exercised by the word.
It takes a conscious choice in a repeated manner for “a thing” to become habit. All I can say is, Lord thank you, for waiting until I was ready to receive Your instruction through this ongoing grief process.